On postgrad

Ah, now that’s a topic that many of my college-mates would love to go on and on about.

It’s been an issue that has given me too many a headaches. GRRRR!!!! My family, friends and ex-students-turned-into-friends, know how I have been exasperated by it.

I’m not sure how long more would I have to go through the occasional mental torture. Feels like the longest battle ever. I’ve gotten so many comments and opinions in the last 2 years that if I compiled them all, I’m sure they would surely outdo the thickness of the Complete Oxford dictionary.

So. anyway. I never thought I’d say this, but I think I have finally come to terms with waiting for God’s timing. It took me a long long long ride to get here, but I sure am glad I finally learnt it. I recently I picked up a book entitled “What is God waiting for?”, and all I can say is that boy, am I glad I did. To me, the best books are not those that are written, speckled with bombastic vocabulary, but those that are so real. So real that it pierces through you, like someone punched you in the chest and knocked all the wind out of you.

Because now, I actually have a story to tell. I’ll keep you posted. I can’t wait to share it. All thanks to CY, who dared me to believe that it is His story, not mine. All credit goes to the One who deserves all glory.

Yikes!!!

I never seem to learn. Or rather, I think I must have an affinity towards ”things to do” or “things to get involved in”. “Affinity” is the most apt word because ever since I learnt about how our body’s cells have affinity towards different chemical properties, I find myself behaving quite the same way too towards life and its many things.

Poor guy. He has been at the brunt of all my weariness and sometimes, short temper. Then again, the one I should feel most guilty about is my mum. Have really been neglecting her. Was so glad to come back after a long day out at work, to just sit down next to her on the sofa, and watch the meaningless TV programme, just so I could accompany and chat with her.

How did I get here yet again? I thought I had cautiously taken time to re-evaluate on my life, as well as to reprioritize the various things in my life, just so that I wouldn’t be so stressed out over and over and over.

I hate how most people associate me with the word “busy”. I should hate to think that that’s the first word that comes to mind whenever my name is mentioned.

Writing’s really good for my soul. I need to do this more often. Really, thank God for well-meaning friends who actually bother to nudge me if I don’t update often enough. If not for that kinda peer pressure, haha, I just might not get down to doing it. Today, I am actually sacrificing my lunch time, to plop down at the computer to write this. Cheers for myself! Heh.

Hmm, let’s see, what have I been up to.

I recently became a member of a political party. Initially, I was feeling shy about this and hence, didn’t bother informing many friends. Because I often only got one of two reactions. I either get a “Wow, good for you!” or “Why that party?”. But yeah, why did I do it? I’ve been procrastinating long enough. Since my college days, ever since I took the Political Science, it changed my perception of politics forever. And seriously, what better way to get involved by taking the first baby step? Honestly, I am so tired of hearing people bash the government day in day out – and not do anything about it. I decided I am not going to be one of them. If something needs change, then the first thing to do is to take the first step towards working for a change. And I know I am just one person, but at least I convinced myself to do something, rather than do nothing. So which party I joined? I joined the branch that’s spearheaded by a leader whom I respect, and who share the same godly values and principles that I abide by in life. It was simple to do, but no so easy to commit because doing so does inconvenience me. But I sure am glad I did it. If you want to know more about what I’ve volunteered to do, drop me an email. Now, let’s see what God has in store for me that arena.

What else? I decided to start writing more seriously. I need to do this. It’s one skill I need to polish and refine. Because if I don’t, I’m gonna lose it. Was initially considering taking up a writing course but then it would be too time consuming at the moment, and a more vital point in the decision making was that it would cost. Quite a lot. So well, took up a very very very part-time stint. Just for practice with meeting with deadlines and at the same time, learning to be versatile. Hopefully I don’t get stuck with only mundane things.

Ooh, been reading a couple of books on financial management. This is something totally new to me. I’m so glad I’m starting young so that hopefully, I don’t make the same mistakes as many others do when it comes to money matters. I’m so thankful for friends (and boyfriend) who are an excellent influence to me in this area.

Recently starting reading more regularly too. Decided I will not be too busy to invest in my personal time. Currently reading The Pilot’s Wife by Anita Shreve. I have to say Joanne has been a pleasant company in this area. I find it so enjoyable to be able to discuss books with a friend. I’m not sure if I look like a bookworm. But I really am, true and true. I guess it all started when I was a child and because I was the only girl among 3 elder brothers who had their own games and activities, most of which totally didn’t interest me, I turned to books as friends instead. And over the years, my love for them have only developed further. And I don’t know why people look at me funny when I’d much rather read a book during lunch break than to spend time gossiping about everything under the sun. However, I have a bad habit. I tend to read a few books (ok, so maybe it’s more than a few) at once and so on my night stand, lies about 10 (no kidding you) books of different genre. What can I say? I have different moods for different books each time. But I’m about to finish The Pilot’s Wife because it is pretty easy reading and engaging.

Finally, really really really desiring so much to be consistent in all other areas of my life. Now, if only I can be disciplined enough. I have to. I must. I shall.

Dear Lord, please help.